thank u everyone who sent me things while away i am crumbling ekkkkkkzzzzzzzz theres thunder inside my head i love you all so much i am going to bed i am sorry xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

this whole time i thought many parts of me were dead because i never missed him how wrong can one be why can i feel this feeling of i dont know i feel like im in some crush disease for some boy  i have always known what is this y can i not see nor punch it to death 

he is in my voice he is buried in me 4 always the distance is hard i want to kill myself again never more so than now the silence came back together and waited with our mistakes and im so frightened of what i feel for him now i shouldnt have gone 

I WANTED 2 KISS HIM BUT THE TREMBLING STOPPED ME I REMEMBER HIS FINGERS AND HIS HAIR UNDER MY NAILS 

i was writing a letter and it got dark i scribbled and i scrunched it up and made a hair lock and flower bracelet instead 

i was writing a letter and it got dark i scribbled and i scrunched it up and made a hair lock and flower bracelet instead 

me pastel flowers

dont 4get to drink water (sip it) dont drown ekkkkkkz xxxxxxxxx take ur meds if needed angels if u have a bad day outside ahead of u listen to the birds and if ur in a city look for cracked concrete and flowers trying to grow and remember if its gloomy u r my sun clouds and moon clouds angels itll be okay its one more day and then tomrrow maybe draw with pastels and play with stickers or play games and read xxxxxxxxxxx